这...就是我的生活...

老实说..还真厌倦这种生活...
没人关心,没人在乎...
活着是为了什么?
不知道...
原来付出从来不等于收回是真的...
原本以为只要对人好那别人就会对你好..
怎么可能...
白痴才会相信吧..
但我曾经是那个白痴...
真的好累..
不希望别人是因为可怜,同情我才对我好..
这种好真的很可笑..
有时我扶心自问...
我对人不够好吗?
朋友有难..两挟插刀,在所不持...
试问..当我有难的时候你又在哪?
我...要求不多...
只希望难过,伤心时有个肩膀...
开心时有你陪我分享..
但这一切似乎很难...
也许我该冰封我的心...
这样才不会被受伤害...

有些事情不是说忘记就真的能忘记

本来以为我能忘记以前的事
但经过了今天我才发现原来它一直藏在心里的某一个角落
每当伤口即将痊愈时
你却一次又一次的在伤口上撒盐
这种感觉我想你是从来没试过的
所以你根本就不会懂那种感觉
以前的我总是傻傻的等
等待着一个不可能发生的奇迹
所以才会一次又一次的受伤
遍体鳞伤的我总是相信你
但真心的相信换来的竟然是残忍的伤害
现在的我真的累了
已经没有力气再继续被你伤害了
可能这时离开会是最好的选择
默默地离开那个伤害了我无数次的你
也不想让你知道原来你对我来说是那么重要的
不过我想这一切都已经成为过去了
对吧？

颓废的一天

Today morning is my ktt test..i just simply fly thru it..dunno y..damn lazy nowadays..but when i saw the test paper i only noe wat is the return of flying all the way...i regret..but no cure d..it's too late..i think it was the worst test for myself tat i ever take..

to be continue on the "tui fei de yi tian"..i going out with my buddy to watch a movie.."where got ghost"..it is a singapore movie..feel so touch to her tat even she dunno hokkien..but she stil willing to watch it..haha..between..this is really "xia dao xiao" movie.. when i get shocked on smt..there was smt tat stil make me laugh non stop..haha..unfortunately..when we wanna take photo..the light of the cinema suddenly turn off...zzz...


人生会有几个颓废的一天?
数不尽吧..
但愿我不会再颓废下去就好

sick jor

aikhzz...today shopping til half way then feel fever and flu..
I jz recover not more than one month...but sick again..
y god treat me so bad? next week is a hyper busy week..i got no time for sick ler..
hope illness wil faster go away from me...hate fever the most!!
pls go away from me..plzz...

grey sky

4th of sept
an unhappy day for me
ask for reason?
it's too much until I also forgot part of it
it's coz of stressful of my course work
tests, assignments, quiz, tutorial, report...plus vexation..
the uni life i having is not as what i think of before i entering uni
in my dream, uni is colourful and full of happiness
but...my life now is colourless and full of stress
tired of keep on giving care all the time...
hope to receive it as well..
but it seems like so hard to get it..
mayb this is my life

but when i feel i am fighting with loneliness..
there is stil someone that giving me support silently..
thanks..my frens..